Saturday, November 21, 2009

Great Saturday

We had a really great day today. Seelie and I got up pretty early and slept on the couch together for about an hour which was nice and cuddly. Then he was content to lay on the floor and chill/nap for awhile. I enjoyed goofing off and drinking some coffee. We had a nice relaxed morning.

Then we got ready and about Noon we took Seelie over to my parent's house so that my mom could watch him awhile. Tony and I went out for brunch at J. Christopher's which is our favorite new place in town to eat. We had a nice leisurely time and enjoyed some time alone as a couple. Then Seelie was still doing fine w/ my mom so we came home to hang out and do some chores. I was able to get the bathrooms cleaned. I had been wanting to do that, but it is harder to navigate with Seelie around.

Seelie did really well with my mom. She said that he slept a good bit and then played in the pack n play for awhile. She called about 2:40 and he still had not eaten anything though. She said he had not been fussy at all and didn't seem to want the bottle when she had offered it earlier. I told her that he really did need to eat though because I fed him last at 10am. So she said she would feed him and then I could wait and come get him in a little bit. Tony and I did some more cleaning and hung out a bit. Then I went and picked Seelie up just before 4pm. Mom said that she offered him the bottle just after she hung up with me and that he ate all 4 oz that I had given her without fussing at all. He was chilling when I got there. Mom was holding him in her lap and he didn't immediately start fussing wanting me. I was really glad to see that he did so well with mom. This was our first time leaving him with anyone else. I was nervous about how he might respond to being without Tony or I. I also wasn't sure how he would do w/ the bottle since it has been so hit or miss. I'm glad it seemed to go well.

When we got home he wanted to nurse immediately. He did so for about 30 minutes and then was happy and wanted to play. He played on his playmat for awhile. Then I gave him his bath and fed him again. He only ate for about 8 minutes, which can be enough, but isn't a lot. Then he passed out. He stayed asleep for awhile so I decided to put him down in his crib. I usually swaddle him for his long sleeps at night, but he had just been bathed and was wearing his warm footed pjs. So I just put him down in that. I really expected him to wake up pretty much right away, but he's been in there for almost 2 hours now and has not woken up yet. Or should I say he hasn't cried yet. I go to the door periodically and I can hear him in there sucking his fingers, but he could be asleep or awake and do that. I'm a little bit nervous though because I really didn't/don't think he'll be out for his long sleep, but I'm not sure when he'll wake up. I don't know if I should go to bed or stay up and wait him out.

Oh, well. I had a nice day and really enjoyed reconnecting w/ my wonderful hubby! Tony's friends asked at the last minute if they could come over this evening and we agreed. So he is hanging out with them downstairs. I considered actually trying to hang out w/ them also since Seelie went down so early, but they are actually playing some new games tonight. I don't want to be in the middle of a game and have to come tend to Seelie. I figure that I could enjoy some "me time" instead.

Oh, also, Seelie did pretty good with his play time this morning. I put him on his tummy some which he does not like. He is getting a really flat head on his left side so I'm trying to work on getting him off of it some. He didn't want to lay on his tummy though so I just tried turning him on his right side and laying him where the only way to see his toys was to look that way. He stayed on his right side for a minute or two and then rolled back onto his back, but he kept his head turned toward the right. It was only for a few minutes total, but every little bit counts.

Yesterday we went to visit one of my coworkers. She is out on sick leave because of a back surgery. We had a nice long visit. Seelie was really good the whole time. He fussed just a little, but I think it was due to gas. I had taken a bottle with us and tried to give it to him, but he didn't want to take it. We were there for about an hour and a half. Then we went to Walmart for a little bit. Mostly I wanted to get him to take the bottle, because I know that I have to work harder on getting him used to it. (I'm guilty of not attempting it everyday like I said I would) Anyway, he was content and chilling in his stroller in the Walmart, but I knew that it had been awhile since he had eaten. I offered him the bottle while we were strolling around. He took it reluctantly at first and then actually started sucking normally on it. He took about 1.5 oz. Of course, once we got home he was ready to nurse ;-) At least he took it though.

Friday, November 20, 2009

1st week alone

Yes. This was the week that Tony had to return to work. It did not start out as bad as I thought it could be. But then I had to take Seelie for his 2 month checkup on Wednesday. He received 2 vaccines and we've had a bit of a rough time since then. Wednesday he slept a lot and then fussed pretty much anytime he woke up. I didn't have any baby tylenol because I didn't know I needed it. I had Tony pick some up on his way home and that seemed to help a little. Then Thursday Seelie slept alot again and was pretty clingy. He wanted to be held while he was sleeping or he would wake up and cry. And his crying wasn't just a little fussing but screaming crying which is just heartbreaking.

Last night he wouldn't settle and go to sleep until 11:30 which is really late for him. I think it is because he slept so much during the day and then was finally feeling better. He layed on the floor between 10 and 11 and just played and kicked his legs. He was having a good time and wide awake. I was glad to see that he seemed to be feeling better. His sleep was way messed up though. He slept til 5:15, then when I put him back down he woke up. I got him to sleep in his crib until about 7am. Then when he woke he was fussy so I held him and we slept together on the couch until 9am. Then he woke up and REALLY fussed. He hasn't been having as many bowel movements since his shots, so I think he was working on that. I ended up putting him down on his playmat because he actually seems to work it out better that way. He layed there and fussed a bit. I thought I was going to have to pick him right back up and feed him, but I made him wait while I pumped. Then he got calm and is drifting in and out of sleep. So I am not going to disturb him.

He has started going longer between feedings during the day sometimes. He will get fussy and I will change his diaper and think that he wants to eat. When I change his diaper he calms down and seems happy. So I put him back on his playmat and a lot of times he will go back to playing happily. So that is really nice because when he was eating every 1.5 hours that got pretty old. Now it varies between 1.5, 2, and 3 hours. I can live with that.

At his doctor appointment he weighed 12lbs 12oz and was 24 inches long. The doctor said everything looks good and didn't have any concerns. Seelie was really good for the appointment. He cried when he got his shots, but then calmed down right afterward when I comforted him. He received the DTaP and Prevnar vaccines this month. We are doing a delayed schedule for him and he will basically get 2 shots at every well child visit until he turns 3. I did not like the idea of him getting so many at one time but did want him to get all of the vaccines that he needs. I am happy with this delayed schedule.

Seelie has not managed to roll over yet on his own, but he does get all the way onto his side. He will grunt and seem to be fighting to get the rest of the way over. I think that is particularly funny because he Hates tummy time! He has developed a pretty flat head from always being on that one side though so I have to work on getting him on his tummy more often.

On Tuesday night, Seelie slept for 10 whole hours!! I was so excited! I wasn't worried when I woke up because I heard him stirring over the monitor. He wasn't fully awake yet though so I pumped first before picking him up. He wasn't overly upset either. He used to get SO upset when he would sleep a long time because he would be starving when he woke up, but he does so much better now. The doctor said that he is probably working on sleeping through the night and may do so soon. I would say that 10 hours is pretty close to "through the night" already. I am not counting on him continuing that though. He generally averages about 6.5 hours in one stretch. That's not too bad and I think I can function pretty well with that when I go back to work. If he wants to sleep longer though I'd love it ;-)

Monday and Tuesday I was determined to be able to accomplish a few things during the day. I was fairly successful. I did dishes, laundry, and actually cooked dinner on Tuesday. We also went to the grocery store on Tuesday. I didn't get anything accomplished yesterday or Wednesday, but I was concentrating on comforting my poor little boy. I have not yet decided what I will or won't get done today :-) I am considering taking him shopping.

I posted a video of him on Youtube that is his first time really smiling and cooing at me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aXUF4LdZksA Check it out. It was SO sweet!

I promise I'll try to get some pictures up soon. He's waking now though so I better not push my luck.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Rolling

Seelie is attempting to roll over today! He has gotten himself halfway over, but then gets stuck! Too cute! I just wanted to post that before I forgot.

Friday, November 13, 2009

long week

Ok. I love my child and I am more than grateful to be able to have 3 whole months off of work to be with him, but today I was having a hard time. I just felt very off kilter. It was actually a pretty good day, but I felt like I just wanted to run away or cry. I think it is hormonal probably though. I also feel like I'm getting a little stir crazy. I did get out yesterday for a lunch date w/ my coworkers, but I still just feel like I spend every waking hour in my house. I am going to work on that though.

Yesterday I met my supervisor and two of my unit members for lunch. It was really nice catching up even though I have seen one of them and talked to the other two fairly regularly. Tony and Seelie could have come with us, but I figured that since Tony goes back to work next week it would be nice for me to get a last chance to get out by myself. Tony was more than willing to keep Seelie at home. Unfortunately, Seelie got upset right after I left and seemed hungry, BUT he refused to take the bottle from Tony the whole time I was gone! I had fed him about an hour before I left and I was gone for 2 hours. So it wasn't too long, but longer than he normally goes without eating. Tony said that he tried everything he could think of. He said that Seelie started fussing and wouldn't eat so he put him in his bouncy seat. He said that he fell asleep in the bouncy seat and slept for about 30 minutes. Tony said that when he woke up he fussed again, but still wouldn't eat. He said that he put him back on his playmat and was able to keep him calm for a little while, then he started fussing again. Tony said that shortly after Seelie began fussing again I came home. I felt so bad for Seelie and Tony. I know that it is frustrating for Tony to not be able to satisfy him. It also upset me because I HAVE to go back to work in a month and he will HAVE to take a bottle. So, it just makes it all that more important that we work on getting him used to being away from me and taking a bottle from someone else. What is weird is that he has taken several bottle in the past without much fuss. I don't know what makes the difference for him. It just broke my heart though.

Yesterday he napped really well during the day though. I don't know if he wore himself out while I was gone or what, but he napped more yesterday than he has in at least a week. I was a little nervous that he would not sleep well last night, but he slept fine. He went down after his 7:45 feeding, then woke at 9:30 to eat again. After that he slept until 4am, ate and then slept again until 7am. After he ate at 7 he was fussy/gassy, so I put him up against my chest and patted him to sleep. Then we slept together in the recliner until about 9. It was a pretty decent night.

He was really calm and good this morning too. After he woke up at 9 he wanted down on his mat and he happily played down there most of the morning. I fed him periodically and put him back down. He really likes to just lay there and bat at his toys and kick his feet. He did not really nap today. He slept on my chest for about 45 minutes around 2pm, but not other than that. He ate at 8:15pm and is currently sleeping in his crib. Not sure if he is down for the night or not though.

I think what happens is that I chill and relax in the mornings when he is chilling, then I want to get moving and do things in the afternoon and that is when Seelie tends to get more needy. Also, Tony goes back to work next week and I think I'm worried about being home alone all day everyday for a month. I am afraid that I will be lonely and completely non productive. He keeps reassuring me that my main focus is supposed to be Seelie and that he does not expect much other than that. I still feel guilty some days that I don't feel like I do anything other than feed Seelie, watch tv, and surf the net. I'm gonna make myself lists starting next week and try to accomplish at least one or two things a day. We'll see.

I'm also going to try to focus on getting out of the house on occasion too. So that we can get used to the routine of going places, but also so that I don't get too stir crazy.

Well, I'd better get in bed. I try to sleep as much as I can during Seelie's first long sleep because that uninterupted sleep means SO much to my sanity!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Napping!

My child is actually napping! On his own! He ate at 1pm and then had been awake since then. I put him on his playmat and sat down on the floor next to him. He was playing some and then calmed down a bit. I was reading a magazine and he started sucking on his fingers. A few minutes later he was snoozing. He has been out for at least 15 minutes now. It is so cute too! What is funny is that occasionally he pulls his fingers out of his mouth and then it is like he is fighting himself to get them back into his mouth again. He will use his right hand to hold the left hand in his mouth. Too funny. I'm afraid he's going to wake himself though. Oops... I think he just did! lol.

We've been up since 6:30 basically. After he ate at 6:30 I got him to nap on my chest a little so I could get a tad more shut eye, but not much. He has been on his playmat off and on all day. He has been eating every 1.5 hours today though which is a little tiring.

Seelie is getting SO big!! I have already had to go through his clothes and pull out all of the newborn sized things because they are too small. He has outgrown some of the 0-3 month sized stuff too! He's not fat or chubby, just LONG.

Ok. He's awake now and hungry. More later... maybe pics too.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Wednesday already

Well we were able to get the books all organized on Monday. Now we should be able to find books without looking forever. The other projects that we got done last week were that we cleaned upthe spare bedroom (again) and cleaned out that closet plus both linen closets. Yesterday I cleaned out and reorganized my side of our closet. We've been busy, but it is nice to feel like the house is in better order now.

Seelie has tolerated this pretty well. He prefers to be upstairs on his playmat during the day so he was a little fussy when we were downstairs with the books. I have a Moby-style wrap that I made so that I can "wear" him, but I'm not sure how much he likes it. I think we are going to have to practice so that he will be comfortable in it.

Monday night wasn't the best sleep night. He went down at 7pm, but woke up at 10:40. I had just gotten into a deep sleep too. Then he slept til 3:15am, ate and went right back to sleep. At about 4:30 he cried & woke himself up, so I went and rocked him a minute & he fell right back asleep. He doesn't usually wake himself up like that. Then he was up again at 6,then at 7. I was able to get him to nap on my chest for about 45 minutes, but then he was up for the day.

He was playful and happy most of the day. Tony fed him a bottle about 2pm and he took it fine once I left the room. He fell asleep in Tony's arms and slept for about 20 minutes. Then he woke up and fussed a little, but I think that was just gas. He did not take any real naps. He slept in my arms after feedings a couple of times, but as soon as I would try to put him down he woke up again. I'm not sure if I should try harder to get him to nap or just let it be.

More later...

Monday, November 9, 2009

Monday

Well, Seelie had a odd night Saturday night. He went to bed at like 8:30 and woke up at 12:30, but then he slept for 5 hours. Then he slept another 1.5 hours before getting up for the day.

Then since it was Sunday we had lunch at my grandma's. My youngest sister, Michelle, had come to town for the weekend. This was her first time seeing Seelie since he was in the hospital. Unfortunately, she said that she's not been feeling the best and is worried that she is getting a cold, so she did not hold him. Aunt Vivian got to feed Seelie his bottle. He took about 2 ounces with no problem.

After lunch Michelle, Seelie and I went over to my other sister, Leila's, house. Tony went home to clean up from having his friends over Saturday (his choice). Leila & her roommate have Rock Band for the Wii, so we played some. I mostly sang because I could do that while holding and feeding Seelie. Michelle brought her sewing machine and finished up 4 more diapers for me. She is still working on 9 more so that we will have 29 total. That will help so that we don't have to do laundry quite as often. The new ones are even cuter because she used a flannel on the inside w/ a print of babies in diapers on it :-)

We stayed over there and goofed off all afternoon. Seelie did really well. He seemed to want to nap some but couldn't really with all the excitement. He was not fussy though. He just chilled and took it all in.

We came home around 5pm. He was happy to get some time on his playmat. He ate twice w/ some play time in between and then he was out for the night. He slept from 8pm until 3:15am, then back to sleep until 7:10. He ate and then seemed to want to sleep, but when I put him down he woke up. He ate again at 9 and I've been holding him since because he is asleep on my chest. He's so cuddly!

Not sure what we'll do today. Tony has been working on some of our house organization projects before he has to go back to work. I do my best to help as much as Seelie will let me. Our current project is arranging our 5 bookshelves because we just put the books on them anywhere when we moved in. It is a big project though. Hopefully we can finish that today.

Well, that's my update for now. Gonna try to do more of these one handed updates :-)

Saturday, November 7, 2009

7 weeks and counting

Seelie is 7 weeks old already! Time flies! I am on my computer a lot everyday, but usually he is in my lap at the time so I have to type one handed. I cannot imagine trying to type these long blog posts one handed. Maybe I need to try to do shorter ones though... lol!

Anyway, I just put him down for the night and am not too tired so I figured I'd stay up for a little bit. Seelie is pretty consistently sleeping for a stretch of 5-8 hours for his first sleep of the night now. He will eat for the last time usually between 7 and 9 and then be out. Sometimes he waits til later, but generally it is around then. He will wake up after that sleep and eat quickly then fall right back asleep. He sleeps anywhere from 2 hours to 3.5 hours after that. Then it is hit or miss from there. He may eat and go back to sleep for about 2 hours or he could be up for the day.

Seelie is awake pretty much all day these days. He will close his eyes while eats sometimes and then fall asleep right after he finishes, but then basically if I try to put him down he wakes up within 10-15 minutes. He is alert and happy most of the day. I don't worry too much about him not napping because he doesn't seem to get overtired and fuss about it. He really only fusses when he is passing gas or pooping. He does get pretty irritated about that sometimes. That can be frustrating to me at times also because all I can do is pat him and try to comfort him. I can't wait until that is no longer something that upsets him so much.

I am still not used to getting out and about with him too well, but I can go some. I have been to a breastfeeding support group twice now and that was really nice. We also go to my grandma's (right next door) every Sunday for lunch. Other than that I have only been out shopping with him a few times. He does ok, but I just feel like it is so hit or miss. I'm still uncertain about breastfeeding in public, mostly because we are not used to doing it anywhere but in one certain chair here at home. I need to work on that some. He still only takes my right breast, so I just pump the left. I have over 500 ounces of milk frozen though so that is really nice. We have introduced a bottle and he does ok with it. He was doing really well, but then last Friday I went scrapbooking. I was gone for about 7 hours. Tony gave him a bottle twice while I was gone and was giving him a third when I got home. He was not happy about that 3rd bottle and I ended up feeding him since I was home. Since then he has protested a lot more about getting a bottle. We tried to let my aunt feed him last Sunday and he refused. She gave him to my mom because she has fed him before and he still refused. We have only given him one bottle since then and Tony did it. Seelie took it but Tony said that he was not very happy about it and was not easily soothed afterward. So... we're going to have to work on that.

Seelie seemed a tad bit more clingy after I was gone for that 7 hours, so I am now pretty nervous about having to go back to work. I have 5 more weeks left though so I'm going to work on getting him used to me being gone gradually. I am also going to keep working on letting others give him a bottle too. I want to go back to work and need to, but I KNOW I'm going to be really sad when that time comes. Tony has one week left before he goes back to work. I'm also a little nervous about him being gone also. I know that I can handle everything, but life is so much easier when Tony is here. He can do dishes and laundry and get me something to drink if I need it. Once he's back to work I will have to do most everything by myself. I think it will help me to be more prepared for going back to work myself though.

Seelie is more alert and expressive now. He makes cooing sounds and smiles now. I have a video of him cooing and smiling at me. It was SO sweet. Now he usually coos at the wall behind me while he is eating. He'll stop and grin then start cooing. It is really weird. He won't be looking at me or any actual thing, just staring off into space. He seems so intrigued though. He also likes to lay on his playmat and bat at his toys hanging overhead. He can grab the rings but doesn't really get that he has to let go of them. My mom bought him a giraffe that plays music and he seems to like it a lot also. I try to talk to him and sing to him. Sometimes he seems to like it and other times he seems like he could care less. I also read to him on occasion. He will stare at the pictures and seems to enjoy that, if I catch him at the right time. He does really well in his bouncy seat but does not seem to like his swing very much yet.

Today he slept more than usual and was really wanting to be held. He seemed to want to sleep a lot, but would only sleep if I held him. I spent a couple of hours today just holding him while he slept. I am not worried about him doing that on a regular basis because he does sleep so well at night. He has also discovered that his fingers are good to suck on. He can put himself to sleep if he sucks on his fingers and will allow himself to rest. I swaddle him at night though and that is what helps us to get the long sleeps. Those swaddling blankets are a miracle and a life saver!

I love my little man! He is so sweet and adorable!